“…God Have Mercy On The Man Who Doubts What He’s Sure Of.” –BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN (from his “Brilliant Disguise” (1987))

"BRILLIANT DISGUISE" (1987) by BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN

BRILLIANT DISGUISE” (1987) by BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN

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Well, My Peeps…

…Bradley Was Taken-To-Task, Tonight.

He Was Coldly (yet thoughtfully) Reminded He’s Not Making The Progress He Should Be On His “Non-Blog” Creative-Writing Endeavors.

And Ya Know Something, Kiddies, He’s Very VERY Correct.

I’m Not Making The Progress I Should Be.

I’ve Let My Emotions Overload My Better Judgment…

…Again.

I’ve Spent Most Of My Time So Worried And Focused On Other Things I’ve Not Really Spent The Time I Should Be Spending On My More Pressing Projects.

In Short…

…I’ve Been SLACKING.

That’s The Only Way To Explain It.

I’ve. Been. SLACKING.

Period.

No One Will Ever Take Me Seriously Until I Have Something To Show For My Efforts.

Will They?

No.

Probably Not.

Until It’s A Reality, It’s Just A Dream.

Correct?

Correct.

So I’m Throwing Myself Into My Work, Again.

It Really Would Make Me Feel Like A Fraud If I Never Completed One Of These Stories.

I’ve Worked So Long, And So Hard On Them.

I Can’t Just Give-‘Em-Up.

I Can’t Just Walk-Away.

I Can’t Just Quit.

I’ve Done That With Nearly Everything I’ve Ever Set-Out-To-Do In My Whole Life.

Talk About A Tough Pill To Swallow.

Ignoring It Has Been Easy.

Realizing It?

Facing It?

Those Have Both Just Sucked Some Major Asshole.

Dealing With It?

I Am.

I So Am.

I Feel Like I’ve Been Wearing Different Masks For A Long Time.

Different Disguises.

I Know That’s Why This Song…

BRILLIANT DISGUISE

by BRUCE SPRINGSTEEN

…Resonated With Me So Much, Tonight.

I’ve Been Hiding Because I Doubt Myself.

I Doubt Every Move I Make.

I Doubt Every Move I Don’t Make.

I Doubt Every Thought…

…Every Memory…

…Every Known-Fact…

…Every Unknown-Fact.

Doubt…Doubt…Doubt.

For A Man With A Memory As Acute As Mine…

…That’s A Helluva Lot Of Doubts.

I Used To Be So Sure.

Sure Of Every Action.

Sure Of Every Inaction.

Sure That What I Was Doing Was How I Should Be Doing It.

Sure Of This.

Sure Of That.

Sure…Sure…Sure.

I’m Not Sure When The Doubts Set In.

I Am Sure There Has To Have Been An Event.

There Has To Be A Trigger.

Like Anything Else…

…There Is Cause And Effect.

“A” Happens, And Thus “B” Happens.

That Might Be Oversimplifying It, But It Works.

It Does What I Need It To Do.

I Was A Man Who Was Sure Of Everything.

And Became A Man Who Is Sure Of Nothing.

Something Happened Along The Way.

Some Moment.

Some Event.

Some Trigger.

Am I Right About This?

I Am…Right???

This Final Line Of The Song Is What Really Got Me:

-“…God Have Mercy On The Man Who Doubts What He’s Sure Of.“-

I May Not Be A Man Of Faith, But I Can Totally Identify With What’s Being Said.

I Was Sure Of What I Wanted.

I Was Sure Of How To Get It.

I Was Sure Of How It Was Going To Go Down.

I Was Sure Of Myself.

Then, I Stumbled.

Somewhere Along The Way, I Stumbled.

Time To Pull-Up The Ole Bootstraps And Carry-On, Eh?!

Eh, Indeed!!

I Know How To Write.

I Know I Know How To Write.

So Why The Hell Haven’t I Been Writing?

Like My Friend Told Me…

…My Blog IS A HOBBY.

It IS NOT A PROFESSION.

Somewhere Along The Way I Forgot That Little Fact, Also.

I Love My Blog.

I Have Fun With My Blog.

It Brings Me Joy.

But, In The End, It Really Is Just A Hobby…

…Isn’t It?

Accordingly, I Must Treat It As Such.

Something To Tinker With When The Real Work Has Ceased For The Day.

Right?!

RIGHT!!

Midnight Is Drawing Near.

I Suppose I’ve Said What Needed To Be Said.

I’m Grateful To My Friend For Having The Balls To Just Break-It-Down For Me Like That.

The Best Way To Thank Him, However, Would Be To Excel.

I’m NOT SURE I Can.

I AM SURE I Can Try Try TRY.

Rest Easy, My Peeps.

Friday Is Here.

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The Song Stuck In My Head That ALSO Makes Me Smile: “LEECH” by EVE 6 (1998)

Tell Those Stories To Me…

…I’m Dying To Hear…

…The Things You’ve Done And Seen…

…Far-Fetched As They May Be…

…You Strike A Smile At Me…

…Your Stories Ring Of Purgery…

…Construed…

…With Self-Empowering Themes…

LEECHIs A Personal Favorite Jam From The 1998 AlbumEVE 6By The Alternative-Rock BandEVE 6!!!

…Suckin’ On My Brain…

…You’re The Teacher…

…I’m The Student…

…Turnin’ Things Around…

…Your Story’s Not Congruent…

…Tabloids…

…Decoys…

…Pitiful Excuses…

…Turnin’ Things Around…

…You’re Turnin’ Things Around…

…GO! …

The Single Album ForLEECHBy EVE 6 !!!

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I’ve Known Many A Great Story-Teller In My Day.

A Great Many.

So I Can Totally Identify With This Song…

LEECH

by EVE 6

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One Never Knows How Much Truth Is Actually Injected Into Each Of The Stories.

For Some, It’s All Of It.

For Some, It’s The Bulk Of It.

For Others, It’s Nearly None Of It.

Regardless…

…I Still Enjoy Listening To Someone Spin A Good Yarn.

Especially When They’re Really Good At Telling Them.

In The Blogging World, I’ve Found Many Amazing Story-Tellers.

Sometimes…

…It’s Easy To Believe Them.

At At Other Times…

…I Sincerely Can’t Believe What I’m Reading.

The Question Is…

…Which Are MORE Believable?

For Me…

…It’s The Version With The Most Details.

When People Can Recount So Much Information…

…I Tend To Get More Sucked In.

And That’s A GREAT Thing, My Peeps, Fo SHO!

Some People Can’t Stand A Bundle Of Details.

They Think It Gets Boring.

But Not I.

I’m A Stickler For Details.

Details Sell A Story.

So It’s A Rather Funny Coinkydink That I’d Hear This Song First Thing This Morning.

It Made Me Smile.

It Made Me Think.

It Made Me Reflect.

I Started Thinking About My Grandfather, Actually.

That Man Had STORIES.

Nearly An Endless Supply Of STORIES STORIES STORIES.

He’d Talk About The Great Depression.

He’d Talk About Joining The Navy At 17-Years-Old During World War II.

He’d Talk About Working At The Hospital As An Operating-Room Tech.

He’d Tell Me About The Amazing Things He’d Seen And Experienced…

…Whether They Were Good Or Bad…

…And I’d Listen Intently.

My Father Is Another One.

The Man Can Turn Almost Any Life Experience Into A Nifty Story.

I Think It’s A Gift.

Some People Simply Can’t Do It.

I Suppose I Should Be Thankful To Have Been Brought-Up By People Who Always Did For Me What I Love Doing Now.

I Love Telling Stories.

Some Are Totally True.

Some Are Almost Totally True.

Some Are Carefully Constructed Inventions.

Any Way It Goes…

…I Still LOVE To Tell Them!!!

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So I’ve Gotta Hand It To…

EVE 6

…This Morning…

…And Their Song…

LEECH

!!! !!! !!!

It Totally Got My Mind Working.

It Woke Me From My Mental Slumber, And It Got Me Cranking Away.

It’s A Great Song…

…Regardless Of How It Helped Me This Morning…

…So I’m Very Pleased It Popped-Up, Fo SHO!!!

Sometimes…

…Honestly…

…That’s All It Takes.

A Good Night Of Sleep.

A Hot Cup Of Coffee.

And Some Quality Jams.

BAAM!

Back In Bidnass!!!

Wonderful, My Peeps.

Simply Wonderful.

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I’ve Still Got More To Do Today…

…But I Wanted To Get This One Out Of My Head Before I Started-In On Something Else.

This One Was Important For Me To Get Done.

And I’m VERY Pleased I Did Exactly That.

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I Hope You’re ALL Having A Decent Morning, My Peeps.

If You Are, You’ve Gotta Build On It.

If You’re Not…

…Hmm…

…Perhaps You Just Need More Sleep?

Or A Hot Cup Of Coffee?

Or Some Quality Jams?

Or Some Combo Of Those?

Whatever Works For You.

Good Luck.

😉

I’ve Got Much More To Do Today.

I Believe NOW It’s Time To Go For A Walk.

A Nice Walk On A Nice Morning Sounds Wonderfully Ideal.

So I’m Gonna Make That Happen, Also!

And I Already Know Which Song Is Gonna Lead-Off Said Walk.

Of Course, My Peeps…

LEECH

…It IS!!!

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