“I Have Had Dreams And I Have Had Nightmares…”

“…But I Have Conquered My Nightmares Because Of My Dreams.”

JONAS SALK

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“Sometimes… I Feel The Fear Of… Uncertainty… Stinging Clear. …” — INCUBUS (“Drive” (1999))

…And I…

…Can’t Help But Ask Myself…

…How Much I’ll Let The Fear…

…Take The Wheel And Steer…

…It’s Driven Me Before…

…And It Seems To Have A Vague…

…Haunting Mass Appeal…

…But Lately I’m…

…Beginning To Find That I…

…Should Be The One Behind The Wheel. …

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"DRIVE" Is Off The 1999 Album "MAKE YOURSELF" By The Band INCUBUS

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…Whatever Tomorrow Brings…

…I’ll Be There…

…With Open Arms…

…And Open Eyes…

…Yeah…

…Whatever Tomorrow Brings…

…I’ll Be There…

…I’ll Be There. …

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I’ve Had This Tune On The Brain For The Past 48-Hours.

I’m Not Even Sure Why.

It’s A Personal Fave, Sure Sure…

…But That’s Beside The Point.

It’s Now 3AM Friday Morning…

…And I’m Sitting Here Doing This.

I Was Asleep For An Hour Or So…

…Then Awoke Suddenly As I Was Having Yet ANOTHER Nightmare.

This One, Sadly, Was Exceptionally Wrenching.

Two Planes Collided In Mid-Air…

…And There Was Fire And Chaos And People Lying Hurt Or Dead All Over The Place…

…All The While I’m Searching For My Younger Brother.

My Nightmares Are ALWAYS Like This One.

Not The Planes, And Fires, And Chaos…

…But The Searching For A Loved One During A Horrid Crisis Situation.

And I Am Either NEVER Able To Find Them…

…OR…

…I AM Able To Find Them…

…BUT…

…They’re Either Hurt, Or Dying, Or Already Dead.

Then I Awaken As If I’m Having A Panic-Attack…

…OR…

…Like Someone Fired-Off A VERY Loud Weapon Right Beside My Ear.

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The Problem Here…

…Honestly…

…Is That I’ve Tried Everything I Can To End The Nightmares.

And I Continue Trying Trying TRYING…

…Even Though I’ve Met With Almost ZERO Success.

I Hate Medications, But I’ve Tried Everything In The VA’s Arsenal For Nightmare Management.

There Was A Time In My Life When I Couldn’t Remember Having ANY Dreams.

Now…

…I Only Have Bad Bad BAD Dreams.

I’m Going To Try Laying Down Again In Just A Minute…

…With The Hopes Of NOT Reentering That Same Damned Dream.

Wish Me Luck, My Peeps.

I’m Gonna Need It By The Bucket-Full.

I Hope You’re All Resting Well Enough.

It IS Friday, After All.

Get This Day Under Your Belt…

…And Enjoy The Weekend.

L8r On, My Peeps.

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