Thinking Aloud: Life Sure Is An Odd Duck, Ain’t It.

Well, Ain’t It?

Sure It Is.

My Life Has Always Been Of The Odder(er) Sort.

I’m The Guy That Everything Just Happened To.

If Something Bad Was Possible, I Took The Brunt.

If Something Good Was Possible, Chances Are It Eventually Did Happen In Some Small Way.

If Something In-Between Was Possible, Chances Are I Got The Far-Far-Far-Worse Side Of It.

But, I’m Not Really In The Mood To Complain.

I’m More Of A Mind To Quickly Say “THANK YOU” To You, My Peeps.

I Have My Reasons For Saying “THANK YOU” To You, And I Know I’ll Be Talking About Them More And More As Time Rolls Onward.

But, For Now, For This Moment, I’m Just A Thankful Man.

A Lot Of People Have Tried, And Have Done Their Bestest(est) To Help Carry Me Through These Past Few Years.

As Of Late Monday Afternoon, I Was Informed That A Longstanding Battle I’ve Been Fighting Has Finally Been Resolved.

It Has Been Resolved In MY Favor.

I Won.

My Life Of Hell And Bullshit And Sickness And Poor-Health And More And More Sickness, And Pain, And Suffering, And Blah Blah Blah, And Yakity Schmakity, Has Finally Paid-Off.

At Least, In Regard To This ONE Little Victory.

However, It Makes Me Feel Best Because FINALLY Someone Took Notice That Was In A Position To Do Something About It.

And, They Sided In My Favor.

I’m Elated,

I Feel An Enormous Sense Of Relief.

The 18,000lbs Elephant, With The 800lbs Gorilla Riding Said Elephant, Feel Lifted From Me.

Now I Just Need To Get This Pesky Monkey Off My Damned Back…

…And Perhaps This Chip Off Of My Shoulder…

…Oh, And The Thorn In My Side…

…Uh…

…Yeah…

…Nevermind.

But, Yes, “THANK YOU” Again, Everyone.

Now, Maybe Life Really Can Start Again.

Or, Hopefully, Continue Just Improving And Improving, Bit By Bit.

That Would Be Most Acceptable.

😉     😀     🙂

Pissed-ON!?! Pissed-OFF?!? In This Instance, It Felt Like BOTH!!!

Ever Has One Of Those Moments When You Awaken In The Morning (the wee wee hours of said morning), And Something Doesn’t Feel Quite Right??

You Feel Around Lightly, And Are Quickly Able To Notice You’re Soaked.

You’re Laying In Your Own Bed, And The Physical Sensations Are Telling You One Thing…

“O.M.F.G.! I CANNOT BELIEVE I’D DO SOMETHING LIKE THAT!”

At That Moment, A Touch Of A Giggle Is Met With The Horrifying Power Of Anger.

“Yes, I’m Now Completely DRENCHED And Exceptionally PISSED-OFF!!”

So, I Slowly Try To Roll Out Of What I’m Sure Is A Large Puddle In The Center Of My Bed.

Suddenly, As I Slowly turn…

…I Here A *crumple* *crumple* *crunch* Noises.

So I Quickly Make The Decision And Say, “TO HELL WITH THIS!” As I Jumped Up From My Now Soiled Mattress.

I Check My Clothes First For Conformation.

Sure Enough, My Crotch, My Ass, My Hips, My Sleep-Pants, My Sleep Shirt, All Of Me Is Practically Sopping-Wet.

Then, Upon Further Investigation…

…I Found The Culprit Behind It All.

It Was A WATER BOTTLE.

Apparently, Bradley Got Thirsty In His Sleep.

He Reached His Water Bottle, Opened It, Possibly Took A Drink, And Then Proceeded To Roll Back Over Into Sleep.

So, My Peeps, I Was Very VERY Pissed At The Notion That I’d Pissed-Myself…

…And Simply Felt Like An Embarrassed-Fool Upon Realizing I Hadn’t Been PISSED ON.

Period.

That Was At 4AM’ish’ish.

It’s Now 5AM’is’ish.

So, Good Morning To You, My Peeps.

May Your Day Be Filed With Enjoyable Moments.

I Won’t. I’m Seeing The Dentist, Today.

I Never Leave There With A Smile, That’s Fo SHO.

Dammit. 😦

Anyway, You Kids…

…Have A Damned Decent Day Out There. 😀

HENRY FORD Once Said…

“Obstacles Are Those Frightful Things You See When You Take Your Eyes Off Of Your Goal.”

…And He Couldn’t Have Been Any More Correct, My Peeps.

I’ve Been Thinking About This Quote For THREE DAYS, And I Just Wasn’t Sure How Best To Use It.

Eventually, I Decided Upon This Bloggin’ing.

Honestly, I Think I Spend The Bulk Of My Time Waaaaaaay Tooooooo Focused On The Obstacles, And Totally Neglect My Ultimate Goal.

And THEN, I Recall BENJAMIN FRANKLIN, Who Said…

“He That Can Have Patience Can Have What He Will.”

…And I’m Trying, My Peeps.

I Really REALLY Am Trying.

I Know, I Know…

…Patience, 007, Patience.

I’m Still Holding Onto This Damned Decent Mood Kick Thingy I’ve Been Riding.

Things Continue To Go My Way.

It’s Wild, To Say The Least.

I’m Sincerely Not Used To Feeling Like This, Especially For A Long’ish Period Of Time.

I’ve Been Feeling Good About Myself, And Things In General.

I Honestly Don’t Know How Long This Will Last, But Right Now I Really Don’t Care.

I’m Trying To Live In The Moment, I Suppose One Could Say.

Thus Far, It Has Been Working.

It Has Been Working BRILLIANTLY, Actually.

Better Than I Would Have Ever Thought Possible.

I Just Keep Waiting For The Bottom To Fall Out, Ya Know Ya Know!??

The Things I’m Feeling Aren’t Unknown To Me…

…They’re Just Not The Norm For Me.

I’m Ready For The Next Step.

What That Is, I Really Haven’t The Foggiest.

But, Whatever It Is, I’m Ready For It.

I Promise To Keep Y’all Posted When I Can.

For Now…

…For Right Now…

…Lemme Just Say THANK YOU,  My Peeps.

… … …

I Guess My Little Vacation Is Over, Now.

Time To Get Back To Writing.

Time To Get Back To Y’all.

See Me Soon, Kiddies, And Talk To Me Sooner.

😉       😀       😉

Something To Ponder, My Peeps.

NATHANIEL HAWTHORNE Once Said…

“NO MAN, For Any Considerable Time, Can Wear One Face To Himself And Another To The Multitude Without Finally Getting Bewildered As To Which May Be The True.”

NATHANIEL HAWTHORNE ((1804–1864))

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Yeah.

Now, Tell Me This Quote Wasn’t Written For Me.

Not For Me Alone, No, But Totally For Me In General.

It Gets Right At The Heart Of What I’ve Been Trying To Talk About The Past Few Days.

We Lie To Ourselves So Much.

We Convince Ourselves We’re Not Good Enough…

…Not Fast Enough…

…Not Strong Enough…

…Not Attractive Enough…

…And We Do So At A Break-Neck-Pace.

Suddenly, A Life That Really Wasn’t So Bad Becomes A Living Hell.

Through No One’s Fault But Our Own, We Do This.

We Beat Ourselves Down.

Down To The Ground.

We Take What Good We Do Have Going For Us, And We Tarnish It.

We Do This All The Time.

The Big Question Is…

…As Always…

…WHY?!?!?

Does Anyone Have A Decent Answer?

Anyone??

ANYONE???

I Didn’t Think So.

Honestly…

…I Don’t Have A Decent Answer, Either.

I Wish I Did.

I Sincerely Wish I Did.

There Are Some Whom Believe I Lead A Charmed Existence.

And Then, There Are Some Whom I Couldn’t Give My Life To.

 Some May Think It So Vile.

Some May Think It Amazingly Wonderful.

We’re All Different.

Different Wants.

Different Needs.

Different Tastes.

All Of Us.

You.

Me.

Us.

Again, I Ask WHY?!?

Is This Simply How It Goes?

Is This How Life Goes??

Is This All That I Am???

Is There Nothing More???

I Simply Don’t Know, My Peeps.

I Wish I Did, But Know I (likely) Never Will.

Which Face Am I Wearing Now?

Which Face Shall I Wear Later?

Does It Honestly Change With The Entrance Of Each New Person Into Our Day?

Which Face Are They Wearing?

Once You Start Thinking About It, You Can Almost Make Yourself Sick.

I Don’t Like The Thought.

I Don’t Like Having To Even Ponder This At All.

I’m Already Wracked With So Much Self-Doubt.

Now, I Can’t Stop Thinking About ME And Then The “ME” Whom The Rest Of The World Is Allowed To See.

They’re Very Different Creatures, Fo SHO, My Peeps.

I’m Very Guilty Of This.

Sadly…

…I Suspect You Are, Also.

Sooo…

…What Do We Do, Now?

Where Do We Go From Here??

I Suppose We Just Carry-On As We Always Do.

I’ll Be ME…

…You’ll Be YOU…

…I’ll Show You “ME“…

…You’ll Show Me “YOU“…

…And We’ll All Make Sure We Appear To Be That Which We Are Not.

Such Is Life???

So Goes Life???

Shit.

Now I Have A Headache.

Me & “Mr. Negative” Over Here…

…Wanted To Apologize For All The Negativity I’ve Spewed Of Late, My Peeps.

When Things Start Going Wrong For A Person, They Usually Do So In Rather LARGE Clumps.

Yes…

…Some Have Said I’ve Been Waaaaay Too Harsh On Myself.

Maybe I Have.

Maybe I Haven’t.

Who’s To Say???

Exactly, My Peeps.

But, That’s Not My Current Point.

I’m Talking About My Negative Approach To…

…Ohhh…

…99.993% Of My Recent Life?!

(((Give Or Take A % Or Two.)))

That Part Is Totally MY BAD.

It Hasn’t Always Been That Way, As You’re Well Award.

I Can BE Negative.

I Am NOT Always This “MR. NEGATIVE” Creature.

Lately…

…”MR. NEGATIVE” Is All I’ve Been, Though.

It Hasn’t Mattered What It Was…

…Chances Are It PISSED ME OFF.

It’s For THAT, And Mainly That Alone, I’m Really Sorry.

I Can’t Be Sorry For What I Said.

They Were Honest Expressions Of The Moment’s Emotions.

I Can Regret Them…

…But I Can’t Truly Be Sorry For Them.

I Meant Them.

SO…

…What Have I Learned From This???

Well, I Hate Exterior Drama And How It Perpetuates Itself.

I Create Enough Drama For Myself.

I’m Evidence Of That.

Ain’t That A BIG FO SHO.

: /

It’s Just Life, Kids.

I Know You Understand My Jive.

It’s Not Set.

Sometimes, I Fu*k-It-Up.

You Do It.

YOU DO!

You Could Slow Life Down To The Millisecond, And You’d Still Find A Way To Fu*k-It-Up!

YOU WOULD!

That’s How Life Works.

Goin’ Good…

…Goin’ Good…

…Dammit…

…Goin’ Good…

…Goin’ Good…

…Dammit…

…Dammit…

…DAMMIT!

It Never Fails.

Since I Had The Option, I Blogged During My Issues.

Smart Idea?

???

The Jury Is Still Out On This One, Judge(s).

BUT, I Remain Hopeful.

😉

I Often Refer To My Blog As An Evolution.

It Is.

I’m Constantly Growing As A Blogger…

…And I Try To Learn More From BOTH My Successes AND My Failures.

Needless To Say…

(((Though I'm Going To Say It)))

…I’m Still Learning.

I’m Finding More And More Folks Seem To Care About My Work When I’m Cranking Out Quotes, Or I’m Discussing Personal Drama.

I’m Not Really Sure How To Take That.

Not YET, Anyway.

How Important Is FORGIVENESS???

In Short…

…It Means The World At That Time.

The Point I Wish To Make With This Post Is That FORGIVENESS May Mean Life.

At Least, Now It Does.

I Was Forgiven For An Exceptional Injustice.

I Was Shocked.

I Was Amazed.

I Didn’t Feel I Deserved It…

…But I Got It.

To Be Forgiven By Another Is One Thing.

To Forgive One’s Self Is Totally Another.

He Forgave Me, Yet I Can’t Seem To Do The Same For Myself.

I Wish I Could Go Back.

I Wish I Could Stop What I Did Before It Ever Happened.

(((Side Note: I'd Cry, But I'm So Sick Right Now I Can Barely Write.)))

I Was So SO Foolish, And He Deserved Sooo Much More.

Much Better Than I Gave Him.

I Know The Eventual Outcome Wasn’t My Fault.

It Was A Moment Of Pure Stupidity On His Part.

But, That Doesn’t Change How I Feel.

I Wish It Did, But It Didn’t.

I’ve Been Sick, Since.

Since The Forgiveness.

It Just Doesn’t Feel Right.

I Wish He’d Ripped Me A New One.

I Wish He’d Dropped The Bomb On Me.

But, He Didn’t.

He Told Me I Shouldn’t Feel The Blame.

He Told Me That It  Wasn’t My Fault.

That It’s Nothing I Should Ever Worry Myself About.

But, I Can’t Do That.

I Try Try TRY…

…But I Can’t Do It.

God How I Wish I Could.

I Think My Life Would Be A Lot Different Had I Sucked-It-Up And Carried-On.

But, I Didn’t.

I Let It Eat At Me.

I Let It Destroy Me.

I Let It…

…I Let it…

…I Let It.

Ya Know What, Screw This Post.

I Have So Much I Want To Say…

…Yet Know I’ll Never Be Able To.

So I’ll End This Here.

Just Know, My Peeps, That You Are Loved AND Cared About Deeply.

If I’ve Wronged You…

…I’m Sorry.

I Tend To Rub People The Wrong Way, Which Is Why I’m Apologizing.

I Can Only Hope That…

…With TIME  And PATIENCE…

…I’ll Be Able To Get Beyond All Of This.

This Blog Post Is Evidence Of That.

I’m Trying To Move Beyond This, Kids.

Perhaps, One Day, I’ll Be Able To Do So.

Perhaps.

150,000 HITS! That’s Like… …Well… …A LOT Of HITS!!

WOOHOO!!!

Thank You, My Peeps, For Making Today Extra Special.

It Was Already A Unique Day.

12/12/12

Ya Know?!

SURE YOU DO!!

I Love Piddling With My Blog, As You’re All Very Aware.

It’s The Fact You Keep Coming Back That Makes Me Want To Continue On With My Piddling Ways.

150,000 HITS.

Wow.

Really.

Like…

…Wow.

Who’d Of Thunk It, Ya Know Ya Know?!?!

Exactly.

I Suppose You Knew It All The Time.

Maybe?

We’re Rollin’ With Maybe!!!

😀       😉       😀

THANK YOU, Again, MY PEEPS!!!

ONWARD!!!

😀

The 2012 Blog Of The Year Award.

First, I’d Like To Thank The Academy For…

…Wait…

…Sorry…

…Wrong Award.

I Think?

This Isn’t The Oscars?

Is It?

Is This The Oscars?

Nope?

It’s Russia.

Right?

This Isn’t Russia… …Is It?

OH.

RIGHT.

Sorry.

Mental Sidetrack.

My Bad.

😉

Alright, My Peeps.

So Y’all Know I Don’t Usually Go In For The Whole “Awards Thingy” Simply Because I Never Saw Much To Them…

…Well, Other Than More Work On The Blog That I Sincerely Never Found The Time To Piddle With.

HOWEVER…

…This Is The Second “2012 BLOG OF THE YEAR AWARDS” I’ve Been Nominated For.

So I Figured Why Not, Ya Know?!

I Haven’t Been Working With My Blog So Much Of Late.

I’ve Been In A Mental/Physical/Emotional Funk.

I Just Haven’t Been Able To Keep My Head Above The Water’s Surface So Much.

Just Enough To Gasp For A Quick Breath, Then Down I Go Again.

So I Figured That MAYBE…

…Just MAYBE…

…Doing A Post On This Award MIGHT Make Me Feel A Little Better, And Help Me Rekindle The Fire Inside That’s Been A Little Smothered Recently.

I Sure Hope That’s The Case, Anyway.

Wouldn’t You Be?!

SURE YOU WOULD!!

😀

I’ve Been Nominated For This Award…

…By…

Ms. Maarit-Johanna

…Of…

http://theworldofalexanderthegreat.wordpress.com

…And…

Ms. Renee

…Of…

http://rendezvouswithrenee.com

…And I Very Sincerely Want To Thank The Both Of Them For This.

And Now For Something Completely Important…

The Rules:

• Select the blogs you think deserve the ‘Blog of the Year 2012 Award’.
• Write a post and tell about the blogs you have chosen and present them with their award.
• Please include a link back to this page and include these rules (do not alter the rules or the badges).
• Let the blogs you have chosen know that you have given them this award and share the rules with them.
• Click on my Facebook page on the right hand side of my blog
• As a winner of the award – please add a link back to the blog that presented you with the award – and then proudly display the award on your blog and sidebar … and start collecting stars…

Good God I Hate Rules…

…But Them’s The Rules So Don’t Not Forget Them.

Aight?

AIGHT!

😉

So, I Suppose It’s Time To Select A Few Blogs That Really Deserve This One, Eh?

Eh, Indeed.

🙂       🙂

TYSON

…Of…

headinavice.com

…

TIM

…Of…

timsfilmreviews.com

…

FOGS

…Of…

fogsmoviereviews.com

…

Ms. JAZ

…Of…

catseyesk.wordpress.com

…

CHRIS

…Of…

filmhipster.com

…

Ms. MISTY LAYNE

…Of…

cinemaschminema.com

…

SMAK

…Of…

prometheantimes.com

…

Cinematic

…Of…

cinematicfilmblog.com

…

There.

That’ll Do For Now.

I Didn’t Wanna Get Crazy With The Noms.

Figured A Few Would Do For Now.

If I Didn’t Nominate You, I So Totally Apologize.

There Are About 50 Other Blogs I Could Have Easily Nominated, That’s A BIG FO SHO.

I Love Y’all, Kiddies.

And I Do Totally Appreciate This Award.

I Shall Display It Proudly On My Homepage.

Holla At Ya Later, My Peeps.

PEACE!

😀       😀       😀

Greetings From Chicago, My Peeps!

Yes Yes Yes…

…I’m Very Aware That It’s After 5AM…

…But What’s Wrong With That?!

Besides The Fact I’m The Only Person Still Awake.

And Besides The Fact I Haven’t Slept In Over 24-Hours.

Okay, AND Besides The Fact That I’m So Wide Awake It Ain’t Even Funny.

I’m Having A Ball.

Lots Of Wonderful Conversations…

…Excellent Food…

…Spending A Little Time In The Company Of Those I Hold Most Dear.

It’s F-in GREAT!!!

I Know I Should Be Sleeping, But I’ve Such A Good Time That I’m Totally Amped-Up.

What To Do, What To Do?

???

Guess I Could Watch One Of The Xmas Gifts I Received Upon Arrival.

I Was Gifted TWO (2) Blu-ray Movies!!!

I Received A Copy Of…

“THE GREY“

…Starring…

LIAM NEESON

-Vs-

Those Damned Dastardly Evil Wolves!!!

😀

I Also Received The Crown Jewel Of Blu-ray Wants For Myself…

RIDLEY SCOTT‘s

“PROMETHEUS“

😀       😀

😀       😀       😀

And I Can Even Give Y’all A Quicky Review For Them Both Using Only One Line Of Text, Each.

LIKED IT A LOT 🙂

LOVED IT A BUNDLE 😀

Nice, Quick, Easy, Painless, Perfect.

(*teehehe*)

So…

…Yeah…

…I’ve Been Here For Like 12-Hours…

…And I’ve Already Had Enough Of A Great Time To Totally Justify The Trip!

I Still Know I Totally Will NEVER Want To Live In The Big City Again…

…But It’s  TOTALLY Worth A Weekend Visit.

Smalltown Life Just Suits Me More So.

What’Ya’Gonna’Do, Ya Know?!

EXACTLY!

We Like What We Like…

…And We Knnow What We’re Capable Of.

Right?

RIGHT!!

😀

Anyway, My Peeps…

…Y’all Enjoy Your Weekend!

I’ll Do My Best To Enjoy Myself, Also!

I’ll Holla More So When I Have Some Time To Work-Work On Ye Ole Bloggin’ing!

Until Then… 😉