…Comes To Us From FYODOR MIKHAYLOVICH DOSTOYEVESKY:
“Lying To Ourselves Is MORE Deeply Ingrained Than Lying To Others.”
How’s ’bout Them Apples, My Peeps?
True?
False?
True To Truth?
What?
What Do YOU Think?
To ME…
…This Quote Is Like A MEGA-SCREAM In The Silent Stillness Of The Night.
I’ve Had It Rollin’ ’round My Brain Since Last Night…
…And I’m Still Thinking About It.
WHY?
Because, It’s So True, My Peeps.
It’s So Very VERY True.
Lying To Others Sucks, But It Can Be Even Worse When We Can’t Remember Exactly Which Lie We Told To Which Person.
Lying To One’s Self, However, Is A Totally Different Animal.
You’ve Got Time To Play With It.
To Mull It Over.
To Utter It Over AND Over Again.
Eventually, Correct OR Not…
…Right OR Wrong…
…Lie OR Truth…
…It Sticks.
Once That Happens, You’re Personally Fu*ked.
Once It’s In There, It’s Nearly Impossible To Remove It.
You’ll Remember It All Right.
You’ll Remember It Well.
You’ll Remember It Waaaaaaaay Tooooooooo Well.
Suddenly, The Lie You Told Yourself Has Become Personal Scripture.
It’s A Part Of You, Now.
Part Of Your Mental AND Emotional Make-Up.
Your Chances Of Forgetting About It Just Went To ZERO.
Or, At Least, As Close To ZERO As One Can Muster.
I’ve Lied A Lot In My Life.
I’d Be A Liar If I Didn’t Admit That.
((Huh??? What???))
BUT…
…I Find It Harder, As The Years Pass Me By, To Maintain Those Lies.
I Hate Lying.
It’s Simply A Necessary Evil, Sometimes.
And At Other Times, It’s Simply Used As A Personal Out.
An Escape.
It Also Becomes A Gut Reaction.
A Lot Of Times, We’re Much More Inclined To Lie Than To Even Consider Facing-Up To The Truth.
I Don’t Like It Anymore Than You Do, My Peeps, But You Know I’m Very Correct.
Lying Becomes Second-Nature.
One Lie Perpetuates Another…
…Perpetuates Another…
…Perpetuates Another.
Pretty Soon, You Find You’re Living A Lie.
I Don’t Want That For Myself.
I Don’t Want To Live A Lie.
The Reality Of My Situation, However, Does Make Me Think AND Reflect.
How Much Of My Life Is A Lie?
How Much Isn’t?
Do I Even Know, Anymore?
Do YOU?
"You Jivin' Me, Turkey?" 