“I’m Not Going Down On My Knees, Begging You To Adore Me…”

“…Can’t You See It’s Misery, And Torture For Me?

When I’m Misunderstood…

…Try As Hard As You Can…

…I’ve Tried As Hard As I Could…

…To Make You See…

…How Important It Is For Me.”

“Here Is A Plea…

…From My Heart To You…

…Nobody Knows Me…

…As Well As You Do…

…You Know How Hard It Is For Me…

…To SHAKE THE DISEASE…

…That Takes Hold Of My Tongue In Situations Like These.

Understand Me…

…Understand Me.

Understand Me…

…Understand Me. …”

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I’ve had this song…

“SHAKE THE DISEASE“

by DEPECHE MODE

…on my mind for a few days, now.

It’s a song I’ve known, seemingly, forever.

And, yet, it has been locked inside my brain-case, rolling around over and over again.

It’s a song that says a helluva lot, especially to me.

Especially right now.

You see, I’m still dealing with the most common issue I’ve discussed with y’all many times over…

…LOVE.

Or, well, a lack-there-of.

I still find myself fighting a personal battle with myself over the whole idea of Love, Loving, Being In-Love, and Being In-Love with someone I probably shouldn’t be In-Love with at all.

It’s just life, I know that.

It’s just a normal thing, right?

Riiiiiiight???

Hmm.

I just feel this song says exactly what I NEED it to say.

Exactly what I WANT to say, but can’t.

I remain a man lost in the throws of love and passion.

Time continues to pass me by, and yet my feelings remain the same.

I’m still In-Love.

I just don’t know how much longer I can continue to fight what seems to be a losing battle.

No one loses all the time.

There are always some elated moments of bliss.

Those moments when you’re very Very VERY sure everything is working-out and going your way.

They’re very few and far between, but they’re there.

They do exist.

I know they do, as I experience them.

And I relish in them.

But, it’s simply getting harder and harder to truly feel as though everything really is going to work-out.

I want it to.

I want nothing more than that.

I just don’t know if it’s really going to happen.

I went to bed last night with this song blaring in my mind.

I awoke this morning, and my first thought, again, was this song.

I knew the only way to get it out of my head was to write something about it.

To get it out of me and onto this screen.

And, so, here I am.

Writing about this to all of you.

Not knowing what I really want/need to be saying.

Just knowing that I MUST MUST MUST say something.

Period.

Ending The Summer Of Life-Support With An Amazing Song: DEPECHE MODE’s Cover Of “SO CRUEL” !!!

“We Crossed The Line…

…Who Pushed Who Over?

It Doesn‘t Matter To You…

…It Matters To Me.

We‘re Cut Adrift…

…We‘re Still Floating.

I‘m Only Hangin‘ On…

…To Watch You Go Down…

…My Love.

I Disappeared In You…

…You Disappeared From Me.

I Gave You Everything You Ever Wanted…

…It Wasn‘t What You Wanted.

The Men Who Love You…

…You Hate The Most.

They Pass Right Through You…

…Like A Ghost.

They Look For You…

…But Your Spirit‘s In The Air.

Baby, You‘re Nowhere.

Oh Ooo Oh…

…Love, You Say In Love Their Are No Rules.

Oh Ooo Oh…

…Sweetheart, You‘re SO CRUEL. …”

…

…

Alright, My  Peeps, I Totally Admit I’ve Never Been The Biggest Fan Of Cover-Songs.

Occasionally, However, One Will Pop-Up.

Those Rare Few Are Generally Versions I End-Up Enjoying Much More Than The Original.

It, Honestly, Doesn’t Happen Often At All.

But, In Regard To This Particular Song…

“SO CRUEL“

…I Prefer This Version 10-Fold Over The Original.

Perhaps My Love Of All Things DEPECHE MODE Has Clouded My Judgment?

Nah.

I Don’t Think So.

😉

As I’ve Said…

…This Has Been The Summer Of “Life-Support” For “You Jivin’ Me, Turkey?”…

…And That Is Now Coming To An End.

It Has Been A Wonderful/Horrid Summer…

…Loaded With Tons Of UPS And DOWNS.

I Haven’t Been Working Very Much On The Blog, Aside Of Putting Pen-To-Paper And Writing-Out Some Ideas For Things To Work On.

And Now, As Of This Morning, I Feel Like I’m Ready To Start Getting Back Into The Swing Of Things.

I Hope The Summer Months Have Treated Y’all Very Well, My Peeps.

And, I Sincerely Hope You’re Ready For Me To Get Back To Work.

I May Be A Tad Rusty…

…But I’m Sure I’ll Be Able To Manage Just Fine.

No Worries, Kiddies.

No Worries.

🙂

“Is Simplicity Best…”

“…Or Simply The Easiest?”

—DEPECHE MODE

((From The Song “JUDAS“ (1993)))

“JUDAS“ Is Just A Personal Favorite Jam From DEPECHE MODE That Just Happened To Pop-On During My Morning Walk! It’s Not The Best Song On The Album, “SONGS OF FAITH AND DEVOTION“, But There Truly Isn’t A Bad Song On The Entire Album. Period. 😀

The Song Stuck In My Head: “DAMAGED PEOPLE” by DEPECHE MODE (2005)

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“We‘re Damaged People…

…Drawn Together…

…By Subtleties That We Are Not Aware Of…”

…

“…Disturbed Souls…

…Playing Out Forever…

…These Games The We Once Thought We Would Be Scared Of…”

…

“…When You‘re In My Arms…

…The World Makes Sense…

…There Is No Pretense…

…And You‘re Crying…

…When You‘re By My Side…

…There Is No Defense…

…I Forget To Sense…

…I‘m Dying…”

…

“…We‘re Damaged People…

…Praying For Something…

…That Doesn‘t Come From Somewhere Deep Inside Us…”

…

“…Depraved Souls…

…Trusting In The One Thing…

…The One Thing That This Life Has Not Denied Us…”

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“DAMAGED PEOPLE“

by DEPECHE MODE

…Is A Truly Skipped-Over AND Underrated Jam, My Peeps.

Truly AND Honestly.

It’s Very Odd.

It’s Very Quirky.

It’s Dark AND Brooding.

Yet, All The While, It Remains A Beautiful Song.

Period.

This Is Actually One Of My Favorite Songs From The Album “PLAYING THE ANGEL“…

…An Album Jammed With Favorites.

“PLAYING THE ANGEL” Was Released In 2005, With Most Reviews Saying This Particular Song Was One Of The Drags Of The Album.

People Just Didn’t Warm-Up-To-It Like I Sincerely Felt They Should.

Me?

I Loved The Entire Album, Including The  Song “DAMAGED PEOPLE“, And I’m Quite Unsure Just How Many Times I’ve Listened To It.

It’s A Song That Gets My Brain AND Heart Churning AND Burning Overtime.

At This Moment, This Song Is Locked Into My Mind.

I’ve Been Listening To It The Bulk Of The Morning, And That Sincerely Prompted This Post.

Honestly, I’m Not So Sure What To Say.

I Have Something Written On Paper, But I’m Slowly Realizing I Don’t Really Think I Should Say To Y’all Everything It Actually Says.

I Think I Made It TOOOOOO Personal.

Just Know This, My Peeps…

…I’m Dedicating This Post To Someone.

The Other Inspiration For This Bloggin’ing.

THE SPARK.

Everyone, Whom Works In A Creative Field, MUST Have A SPARK.

Period.

A Muse, If You Will.

Something/Someone That Inspires You.

Something/Someone That Makes You Want To Work.

Something/Someone That Brings You Great Joy In Life.

I Have One.

You (likely) Have One.

So, Tell Me, My Peeps…

…WHAT/WHO INSPIRES YOU???

WHAT/WHO MAKES YOU WANT TO WORK???

WHAT/WHO BRINGS YOU GREAT JOY IN LIFE???

Please Let Me Know, My Peeps.

To Say I’m Curious Is An Epic Understatement.

I Want To Know What Makes You Feel Like Doing This Kind Of Thing, Or Any Kind Of Thing, Regardless Of What It Is.

I Know What Makes Me Happy.

I Know What Makes Me Sad.

I Know What Inspires Me.

I Know What Makes Me Keep Coming Back For More.

So, What Does It For YOU, My Peeps???

Anything???

Anything At All???

There MUST Be SOMETHING???

Right???

RIGHT!!!

😀

😀       😀       😀

What The Hell Is Going On Around Here?!?

Honestly, My Peeps, So So Very Much Has Been Going On.

Life Has Been Quirky…

…Odd…

…Frustrating…

…Wonderful…

…Horrible…

…Exciting…

…Trying…

…Oh, So Very Very Trying.

BUT…

…I’ve Been Weathering It All Quite Well, I Would Say.

I Know It Has Been A While Since We’ve All Shot-The-Shit…

…Kicked-It-Back…

…Talked-Some-Shop…

…BUT…

…I Sincerely Promise There Have Been Plenty Of Quality Reasons.

You See, My Peeps, I’ve Been Trying Very Very Hard To Have A Life.

It’s Not Something I’m Really Accustomed To.

Like, At All.

But, I Have Been Trying.

I Got Myself A Man.  😀

I Got Myself A Job.  🙂

I Got Myself Fired From Said Job Before It Really Got Going.  😦

I’ve Been Playing The Helpful/Dutiful Son.

I’ve Been Playing The Helpful/Dutiful Grandson.

I’ve Been Playing The Helpful/Dutiful Boyfriend.

I’ve Been Playing For The Sake Of Playing.

I’ve Been Having FUN For A Freakin’ Change, And Trying To Enjoy Every Moment Of It.

😀       🙂       😉

Sadly, It Hasn’t All Been Fun And Games.

I’ve Had Multiple Family Members Die Over The Past Few Months.

:*(     :*(

I’ve Suffered Through A Couple Bouts Of Fairly Extreme Illness.

😦

Life Has Really Been Bringing The Heat, But Totally Keeping Me Honest With A Steady Supply Of Curve-Balls.

Sheesh, I Tell You.

Sheesh, Indeed.

I’m Writing This Today Because I’m Looking To Begin Again.

I Miss Working On This Blog A Bundle, Though I Admit I Could Have Come Back To Y’all A Lot Sooner.

But, I Chose To Continue Being A “Reblog-Whore” And Just Let Things Ride.

I Still Plan To Be A “Reblog-Whore”, But I’ll Be Injecting Myself Into Things Whenever I Can.

😉

TODAY…

…APRIL 10TH…

…Is My Birthday.

Everyone Always Asks The Same Question:

"DO YOU FEEL ANY OLDER?"

Honestly, My Peeps, Yes Yes YES I DO.

Period.

I Know I’m Not THAT Old, But I’m Old Enough.

Old Enough To Realize I Have To Continue Trying To Have A Life.

Old Enough To Understand How Important It Is To Continue Onward.

Old Enough To Feel Old Enough.

I’m Tired, My Peeps.

I’m So Very Tired.

But, There Are Still Duties To Perform…

…And Life Goes On.

I’m Going To Leave Y’all For Now.

But, I Do Promise To Be Back Again.

I’ve Been Writing A Lot.

Pen-To-Paper, Ya Know?

Perhaps I’ll Be Sharing More Of That With Y’all.

I Plan To.

So Let Us All See If I Actually Make That Happen.

I Really Do Plan To.

As I Exit (for now) I’m Going To Leave You With A Song.

A Song That Has Quickly Become A Personal Favorite.

DEPECHE MODE Has Just Released Their Latest Album, “DELTA MACHINE“, And I’m Totally In LOVE/LUST With It.

The Song For Today Is…

“SOOTHE MY SOUL“

…And It’s A Real Kicker!

I Sincerely Hope Y’all Enjoy It.

I Find It Simply Exceptional!!!

Please Take Care, My Peeps.

I’ll Write More When I’m Able.

Until Then…

…Take Care…

…Be Good…

…See Me Soon…

…And Talk To Me Sooner!!!

Much Love To Y’all, Fo SHO Fo SHO!!!

😀     😀     😀     😀     😀

😀     😀     😀

I’ve Been Putting Pen-To-Paper So Much…

…I’ve Nearly Lost Myself Here.

I Don’t Mean To Neglect Y’all, My Peeps, But I’ve Been Trying To Take Things In A Whole New Direction.

New For Me.

New For You.

New For Us.

My Fire…

…My Drive…

…My Want…

…My Need…

…My Desire…

…They’re All Returning.

Returning Harder And Faster Than I’d Honestly Known Was Even Possible.

I Was Burning-Out.

The Fire Had Seriously Dimmed.

It Felt Choked.

Smothered.

Almost Strangled Out Of Existence.

And Then It Happened.

The Spark Came Into My Life, And It’s Not Letting Me Go…

…I’m Not Letting It Go.

The Fire Is Burning Hotter And Brighter Than It Has In Forever.

Things Are Changing.

Inside And Out, They’re Are Changing.

And I’m Loving It.

I’m Loving Every Bit Of It.

Am I Setting Myself Up For Failure?

Maybe.

I Don’t Really Care.

No Risk, No Reward.

Right???

RIGHT!!!

Soon, You’re All Going To Start Noticing The Transitions I’m Working-Out.

You’re Going To Hear Me Talk A Lot About The “Clean Slate“ And How It Can Literally Mean Everything.

I Wanted Nothing More Than A “Clean Slate“…

…A “Fresh Start“…

…A “New Beginning“…

…However You Wanna Put It.

Now, I’m Getting That Chance.

I’m Making That Chance.

I’m Taking That Chance.

It’s Mine.

All I Have To Do Is Own It.

And, Own It, I Shall.

🙂       😉       😀

And Now, For Your Listening Pleasure, The Song That Totally Says Everything I Need It To Say Right This Moment…

“INSIGHT“

by DEPECHE MODE

…From Their 1997 Album “ULTRA” !!!

Enjoy It, My Peeps.

You Already Know I Do…

…I Am…

…I Will.

Always And Forever, I Will.

I’ve Given You An Insight Into MY Life…

…I Just Hope To Reward Your Loving Patience.

Later On, My Peeps.

We’ll Be Talking More VERY Soon!!!

The Song Stuck In My Head??? “I Need To Be Cleansed… It’s Time To Make Amends… For All Of The Fun… The Damage Is Done…” –DEPECHE MODE’s “TO HAVE And TO HOLD” (1987)

“…I Feel Diseased…

…I’m Down On My Knees…

…I Need Forgiveness…

…Someone To Bear Witness…

…To The Goodness Within…

…Beneath The Sin…

…Although I May Flirt…

…With All Kinds Of Dirt…

…To The Point Of Disease…

…I Want Release…

…All This Decay…

…Take It Away…

…And Somewhere…

…There’s Someone Who Cares…

…With A Heart Of Gold…

…TO HAVE And TO HOLD.”

“TO HAVE And TO HOLD” Is Off DEPECHE MODE‘s 1987 Album “MUSIC For The MASSES” !!!

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I Have Mentioned This Song…

“TO HAVE And TO HOLD“

by DEPECHE MODE

…Before, But I Honestly Didn’t Tell You WHY It’s Important To Me.

It’s Pretty Easy To See Why This Song Is Stuck In My Head.

Right???

Yes, It’s A Personal Favorite.

Yes, It’s (admittedly) NOT Everyone’s Cup’O’Tea.

It’s Slow.

It’s Quirky.

It’s Dark.

BUT…

…It’s Also Amazingly Beautiful…

…And Brilliant…

…And Simple…

…And Profound.

It’s A Song That Has Stayed Close To My Heart Seemingly Forever.

Since I Was A Teenager, Anyway.

I Know All The Words By Heart AND By Head.

During My Roughest Patches, This Song Was A Savior.

It ALWAYS Said What I Couldn’t.

I Listened To It Over AND Over.

I Did.

Hell, I Did Right Before I Decided To Write About It.

Yeah, I Can Be A “Moody Bitch”…

…And This Song Helps Carry Me Through All Of It.

It’s One Of Those Songs That Brings A Mental AND Emotional Change.

It Does.

It Carries Me, At Times.

And, I Always Come Out On The Other Side.

Usually Damaged.

But, Always Still Alive.

I’d Say That’s Good Enough.

This Song…

“TO HAVE And TO HOLD“

by DEPECHE MODE

…Has, At Times, Kept Me Alive.

It Expresses Itself Sooo Much.

So Much So, In Fact, It Takes Care Of A LOT Of MY Expressing.

It’s So Much Easier To Calm Down When You Have A Song That Feels So Deeply.

You Become Helpless In Its Grasp.

You Get Lost For A Moment.

Just Long Enough To Calm Your Ass Down, Ya Know?!

It Rarely Fails.

Don’t Worry, My Peeps, It’s VERY Safe To ENJOY The Song.

Just Be Careful Where You Sing It Out-Loud.

Other People Will Always Give You That Look As If You’ve Got Some Serious Problems.

Pfft.

What Do They Know, Anyway?!

😉       😀       😉

Tell Me What You Think: “Can You Feel A Little Love?…” –DEPECHE MODE’s “Dream On” (2001)

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“…As Your Bony Fingers Close Around Me…

…Long And Spindly…

…Death Becomes Me…

…Heaven Can You See What I See?…”

…

“…Hey, You Pale And Sickly Child…

…You‘re Death And Living Reconciled…

…Been Walking Home A Crooked Mile…”

…

“…Paying Debt To Karma…

…You Party For A Living…

…What You Take Won’t Kill You…

…But, Careful What You’re Giving…”

…

“…MMHMM…”

…

“…There‘s No Time For Hesitating…

…Pain Is Ready…

…Pain Is Waiting…

…Primed To Do It‘s Educating…”

…

“…Unwanted, Uninvited Kin…

…It Creeps Beneath Your Crawling Skin…

…It Lives Without…

…It Lives Within You…”

…

“…Feel The Fever Coming…

…You’re Shaking And Twitching…

…You Can Scratch All Over…

…But, That Won‘t Stop You Itching…”

…

“…Can You Feel A Little Love?…

…Can You Feel A Little Love?…

…DREAM ON…

…DREAM ON. …”

…

“DREAM ON“ Is, By Far, The Most Popular Jam From DEPECHE MODE‘s Amazing 2001 Album, “EXCITER” !!!

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This Is A Hard Jam To Beat, My Peeps.

“DREAM ON“

…Is One Of The Best Songs, Period, From My Ultra–Favorite Band…

DEPECHE MODE

!!! !!!! !!!

😀       😀

The Lyrics?

BRILLIANT.

The Backing Music And Overall Sound?

QUIRKY–Ass–BRILLIANT.

The Melody And Flow?

Did I Already Use QUIRKY–Ass–BRILLIANT?!

M‘Kay.

How About EVEN–MORE–QUIRKY–Ass–BRILLIANT‘er‘er?!

Awesome!!

I‘m Rollin‘ With It, Then!!!

Can Anyone Really Ask For More From Their Tunage?

NOT. AT. ALL.

Give It A Go, Kiddies.

Tell Me What YOU Think.

I‘m Damned Curious, To Say The Least.

DEPECHE MODE Are Known For Telling YOU To “ENJOY The SILENCE“…

…But, In This Instance, I‘m Honestly Hoping For YOUR Words!!!

ENJOY YOUR DAY, Fo SHO!!!

😀       😀       😀

DEPECHE MODE… …Strikes Again… “IT’S NO GOOD” (1997)

“I’m Gonna Take My Time…

…I Have All The Time In The World…

…To Make You Mine…

…It Is Written In The Stars Above…

…The Gods Decree…

…You’ll Be Right Here By My Side…

…Right Next To Me…

…You Can Run, But You Cannot Hide. …”

… …

“IT’S NO GOOD” Was THE SONG From The Hit Album ULTRA, Released In 1997, By International Supergroup DEPECHE MODE !!!

… …

“…Don’t Say You Want Me…

…Don’t Say You Need Me…

…Don’t Say You Love Me…

…It’s Understood…

…Don’t Say You’re Happy…

…Out There Without Me…

…I Know You Can’t Be…

…‘Cause IT’S NO GOOD. …”

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Generally…

…This Is The Point Were I Swoop.

I Swoop In And Use My Powers To Tackle A Song And Make It My Own In A Very Minor Way.

I Figured Now Would Be Perfect For This Amazingly Wonderful Jam…

DEPECHE MODE‘s

“IT’S NO GOOD“

It’s A Personal Favorite, Hands Down And FO SHO, My Peeps

I Hope You Dig The Jive Of  This One.

You Already Know I DO!!!

😀       :O      😀

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