“I‘m In The Throws Of A Writing Slump, While Already In The Midst Of A Writing Revelation.”
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“I Know Exactly What I Want To Say, But I‘m Struggling To Find The Words To Express It.”
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“Things Are So Muddled, Yet They‘ve Never Been Clearer.”
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“I‘d Say I Don‘t Know What To Say, Except That I‘ve Already Said It.”
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“That‘s Where I‘m At, Which Could Be Nowhere At All, Yet Could Be Everywhere I Need To Be.”
Honestly, My Peeps, So So Very Much Has Been Going On.
Life Has Been Quirky…
…Odd…
…Frustrating…
…Wonderful…
…Horrible…
…Exciting…
…Trying…
…Oh, So Very Very Trying.
BUT…
…I’ve Been Weathering It All Quite Well, I Would Say.
I Know It Has Been A While Since We’ve All Shot-The-Shit…
…Kicked-It-Back…
…Talked-Some-Shop…
…BUT…
…I Sincerely Promise There Have Been Plenty Of Quality Reasons.
You See, My Peeps, I’ve Been Trying Very Very Hard To Have A Life.
It’s Not Something I’m Really Accustomed To.
Like, At All.
But, I Have Been Trying.
I Got Myself A Man. 😀
I Got Myself A Job. 🙂
I Got Myself Fired From Said Job Before It Really Got Going. 😦
I’ve Been Playing The Helpful/Dutiful Son.
I’ve Been Playing The Helpful/Dutiful Grandson.
I’ve Been Playing The Helpful/Dutiful Boyfriend.
I’ve Been Playing For The Sake Of Playing.
I’ve Been Having FUN For A Freakin’ Change, And Trying To Enjoy Every Moment Of It.
😀 🙂 😉
Sadly, It Hasn’t All Been Fun And Games.
I’ve Had Multiple Family Members Die Over The Past Few Months.
:*( :*(
I’ve Suffered Through A Couple Bouts Of Fairly Extreme Illness.
😦
Life Has Really Been Bringing The Heat, But Totally Keeping Me Honest With A Steady Supply Of Curve-Balls.
Sheesh, I Tell You.
Sheesh, Indeed.
I’m Writing This Today Because I’m Looking To Begin Again.
I Miss Working On This Blog A Bundle, Though I Admit I Could Have Come Back To Y’all A Lot Sooner.
But, I Chose To Continue Being A “Reblog-Whore” And Just Let Things Ride.
I Still Plan To Be A “Reblog-Whore”, But I’ll Be Injecting Myself Into Things Whenever I Can.
😉
TODAY…
…APRIL 10TH…
…Is My Birthday.
Everyone Always Asks The Same Question:
"DO YOU FEEL ANY OLDER?"
Honestly, My Peeps, Yes Yes YES I DO.
Period.
I Know I’m Not THAT Old, But I’m Old Enough.
Old Enough To Realize I Have To Continue Trying To Have A Life.
Old Enough To Understand How Important It Is To Continue Onward.
Old Enough To Feel Old Enough.
I’m Tired, My Peeps.
I’m So Very Tired.
But, There Are Still Duties To Perform…
…And Life Goes On.
I’m Going To Leave Y’all For Now.
But, I Do Promise To Be Back Again.
I’ve Been Writing A Lot.
Pen-To-Paper, Ya Know?
Perhaps I’ll Be Sharing More Of That With Y’all.
I Plan To.
So Let Us All See If I Actually Make That Happen.
I Really Do Plan To.
As I Exit (for now) I’m Going To Leave You With A Song.
A Song That Has Quickly Become A Personal Favorite.
DEPECHE MODE Has Just Released Their Latest Album, “DELTA MACHINE“, And I’m Totally In LOVE/LUST With It.
The Song For Today Is…
…And It’s A Real Kicker!
I Sincerely Hope Y’all Enjoy It.
I Find It Simply Exceptional!!!
Please Take Care, My Peeps.
I’ll Write More When I’m Able.
Until Then…
…Take Care…
…Be Good…
…See Me Soon…
…And Talk To Me Sooner!!!
Much Love To Y’all, Fo SHO Fo SHO!!!
😀 😀 😀 😀 😀
😀 😀 😀
—At Least, I’m Pretty Sure I Do. It Feels Like I Do. When I Wake-Up Wake-Up, I’m Exhausted. Regardless Of How Long I’ve Laid There, I’m Exhausted.
Period.
If Our Dreams Are A Reflection Of Ourselves, Our True Selves, Then I Sincerely Haven’t A Clue As To What To Say Next.
Perhaps I Sincerely Shouldn’t Have A Clue As To What To Say Next.
I Already Feel Like An “Odd Duck” In Many MANY Ways, So I Just Hope That, In This Instance, I’m No More Odd Than The Rest Of You.
Sometimes, I Wish They’d Come True.
Sometimes, I Pray They Don’t Come True.
Sometimes, I Know They’re Going To Come True Whether I Want Them To Or Not.
Sometimes, Sometimes, Sometimes.
Sheesh.
Right, Kids?!
…I’ve Nearly Lost Myself Here.
I Don’t Mean To Neglect Y’all, My Peeps, But I’ve Been Trying To Take Things In A Whole New Direction.
Returning Harder And Faster Than I’d Honestly Known Was Even Possible.
I Was Burning-Out.
The Fire Had Seriously Dimmed.
It Felt Choked.
Smothered.
Almost Strangled Out Of Existence.
And Then It Happened.
Things Are Changing.
Inside And Out, They’re Are Changing.
Am I Setting Myself Up For Failure?
Soon, You’re All Going To Start Noticing The Transitions I’m Working-Out.
You’re Going To Hear Me Talk A Lot About The “Clean Slate“ And How It Can Literally Mean Everything.
I Wanted Nothing More Than A “Clean Slate“…
…A “Fresh Start“…
…A “New Beginning“…
…However You Wanna Put It.
🙂 😉 😀
And Now, For Your Listening Pleasure, The Song That Totally Says Everything I Need It To Say Right This Moment…
“INSIGHT“
by DEPECHE MODE
Enjoy It, My Peeps.
You Already Know I Do…
…I Am…
…I Will.
Always And Forever, I Will.
I’ve Given You An Insight Into MY Life…
…I Just Hope To Reward Your Loving Patience.
Later On, My Peeps.
We’ll Be Talking More VERY Soon!!!
Why Me?!
😦
I Don’t Honestly Know Any Other Way To Say It, My Peeps.
I’ve Tried.
But, In The End, I Continue To Come back To Those Two Simple…
…Personally Scathing…
…Personally Crushing Words…
Why Me?!
😦 😦
I Don’t Actually Have An Answer For You.
Not A Good Answer, Anyway.
I Know We Haven’t Talked Much Of Late, But I’m Sure You’ve Already Noticed That.
I’m Back Down, Again.
I’m Discovering That My Emotions Are Rather Fragile.
More Fragile Than Even I Had Ever Realized.
Like, Ever Ever.
That’s Probably Because I’ve Spent The Bulk Of My Life Suppressing Them.
As I Slowly Let Them Out, I’m Forced To Realize More And More Why I Had Always Shielded Myself From Them.
To Be Perfectly Honest…
Period.
I Will Say This, My Peeps…
…I’d Hand-Written A Very Loooooong-Winded Rant About What’s Been Happening Of Late…
…But, Now, I Sincerely Don’t Want To Discuss It All Right Here.
I Made A Promise Not To Write About My Current Love Life…
…Or LACK-THERE-OF…
…And I Was Honestly About To Break That Promise.
Then, Well, I Actually Took The Time To Think It All Over.
Just Know That Things Are No Longer “Going My Way” And It Has Been Quite Depressing.
I Know Things Will Never ALWAYS Go My Way, But In This Instance It Really Did Just Crack Me Over The Skull And Then Laugh At Me.
Have I Learned Anything From My Life’s Recent Events???
😦 😦 😦
Just Do Me A Solid, My Peeps, And Don’t Worry About Me.
I Know I’ll Rebound Again.
It’s Like The Famous Quotation…
“We Are Healed Of A Suffering ONLY By Experiencing It To The Full.”
—MARCEL PROUST
He Was A Rather Smart Man, Wouldn’t You Say?!
Yeah.
Ever Has One Of Those Moments When You Awaken In The Morning (the wee wee hours of said morning), And Something Doesn’t Feel Quite Right??
You Feel Around Lightly, And Are Quickly Able To Notice You’re Soaked.
You’re Laying In Your Own Bed, And The Physical Sensations Are Telling You One Thing…
“O.M.F.G.! I CANNOT BELIEVE I’D DO SOMETHING LIKE THAT!”
At That Moment, A Touch Of A Giggle Is Met With The Horrifying Power Of Anger.
“Yes, I’m Now Completely DRENCHED And Exceptionally PISSED-OFF!!”
So, I Slowly Try To Roll Out Of What I’m Sure Is A Large Puddle In The Center Of My Bed.
Suddenly, As I Slowly turn…
…I Here A *crumple* *crumple* *crunch* Noises.
So I Quickly Make The Decision And Say, “TO HELL WITH THIS!” As I Jumped Up From My Now Soiled Mattress.
I Check My Clothes First For Conformation.
Sure Enough, My Crotch, My Ass, My Hips, My Sleep-Pants, My Sleep Shirt, All Of Me Is Practically Sopping-Wet.
Then, Upon Further Investigation…
…I Found The Culprit Behind It All.
He Reached His Water Bottle, Opened It, Possibly Took A Drink, And Then Proceeded To Roll Back Over Into Sleep.
So, My Peeps, I Was Very VERY Pissed At The Notion That I’d Pissed-Myself…
…And Simply Felt Like An Embarrassed-Fool Upon Realizing I Hadn’t Been PISSED ON.
Period.
That Was At 4AM’ish’ish.
It’s Now 5AM’is’ish.
So, Good Morning To You, My Peeps.
May Your Day Be Filed With Enjoyable Moments.
I Won’t. I’m Seeing The Dentist, Today.
I Never Leave There With A Smile, That’s Fo SHO.
Dammit. 😦
Anyway, You Kids…
…Have A Damned Decent Day Out There. 😀
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“FREAK ON A LEASH” Is By The Nu Metal Band KORN And Was Released In 1998 !!!
“FREAK ON A LEASH” Is Originally Off Of The 1998 Studio Album “FOLLOW THE LEADER” By KORN !!!
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“FREAK ON A LEASH“
by KORN
“FREAK ON A LEASH“
“Life‘s A Funny Creature, Sometimes. She Has A Very VERY Bad Habit Of Jerking The Proverbial Rug From Under Us At The Oddest Moments. Just When You‘re Feeling Comfortable. Feeling Secure. Feeling Happy. BAAM! She Strikes. And She Never Strikes Lightly. No No. She Jerks The Rug AND Gives You BOTH Barrels ALL AT ONCE. Such Is Life, Eh?! Yeah. Such Is Life.”
"You Jivin' Me, Turkey?" 