***"Maybe this World is Another Planet's HELL." – Aldous Huxley***
…But I sincerely felt the need to do-up a quick post for y’all.
You see, I got to spend tonight conversing with a close friend.
It had been forever and a day since we’d spent any time together, and the conversation was exceptionally enlightening.
We talked about this and that, and it was all very helpful to me.
Eventually, the conversation turned to life, love, and relationships.
He bluntly stated that I sincerely need to make-my-move on my best friend.
We’ve been the best of friends for quite some time, and it’s no secret at all that I’ve been madly in-love with him for the past two years.
It’s an odd situation, to say the least.
Honestly, I would have made my move a long while ago, but I just haven’t felt like the timing was proper.
Yes, I love him.
Yes, I want him.
Yes, I’d give anything to make him mine Mine MINE.
The biggest reason I haven’t made said move is because I don’t sincerely believe he would say “YES!” to my proposal.
I know it’s odd for a man to be madly in-love with his best friend, but it’s a situation I simply cannot escape.
…what do I do???
He knows I love him.
He knows I care about him above all others.
He knows I’d marry him at the drop of a hat.
Sadly, I think that’s why nothing has progressed between us.
There’s no challenge.
There’s no mystery.
There’s simply He and I.
The thing is, not much would honestly change between us if we did become an exclusive item.
I just don’t know what to do, kiddies.
But, alas, I want MORE.
So, again, what does one do???
How do you tell the person you consider your closest companion that you would be even happier and more contented if he would simply marry you???
His family is in my corner.
Our friends are in my corner.
Everyone of any importance in our worlds seem to feel that we would be the ideal couple.
I totally agree.
The thing is, I don’t think he does.
That’s what’s most difficult.
If he would only say “YES!” to my advances, I’m sure life would grow by leaps and bounds.
I am a man in-lust.
I am a man in-love.
I am a man who wants what he wants, and I’m getting sick and tired of feeling unwanted and under-appreciated.
So, again, I ask “WHAT DO I DO???”
Do I throw caution to the wind and simply go for it?
Or, should I simply be contented with things as they are?
I know, I know…
…I’ve written about this same subject many a time, but the issue continues to plague me.
Am I happy? YES.
Could I be much much happier? YES YES.
And, would I give a year of my life to simply know the answer to the question that continues to haunt my day to day existence? YES YES YES.
It makes me feel pathetic at times, but I don’t rightly care.
I want what I want.
And all I want is HIM.
Period. Period. Period.