“…I Can Feel The Emptiness Inside Me Fade And Disappear… There’s A Feeling Of Contentment Now That You Are Here…” –DEPECHE MODE (“Only When I Lose Myself” (1998))

…I Feel Satisfied…

…I Belong Inside…

…Your Velvet Heaven…

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ONLY WHEN I LOSE MYSELFWas The Stand-Alone Single From DEPECHE MODE‘s 1998 AlbumTHE SINGLES 86>98

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…Did I Need To Sell My Soul…

…For Pleasure Like This?…

…Did I Have To Lose Control…

…To Treasure Your Kiss?…

…Did I Need To Place My Heart…

…In The Palm Of Your Hand…

…Before I Could Even Start…

…To Understand?…

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The Single-Album ForONLY WHEN I LOSE MYSELFBy DEPECHE MODE

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…It’s Only When I Lose Myself In Someone Else…

…That I Find Myself…

…I Find Myself. …

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Alright, My Peeps.

I Know.

I Know.

I’ve Been On One Of My DEPECHE MODE Kicks, Again.

TRUST ME, PLEASE, When I Say…

"THEY'RE THE MOST ADDICTIVE BAND IN HISTORY. PERIOD."

At Least…

…They Are To ME.

I Consider The Song…

ONLY WHEN I LOSE MYSELF

…To Be A Very Forgotten Classic.

It Was Released On The Album…

THE SINGLES 86>98

…In…

…Oh Yeah…

…1998.

🙂

It’s A Greatest Hits Album…

…But…

ONLY WHEN I LOSE MYSELF

…Is/Was An Original Song…

…Produced Specifically For Said Album.

It’s A Slower Number…

…And It’s Amazingly Beautiful.

Period.

The Lyrics Alone Are Worth Their Weight In Gold.

No Foolies, Kiddies!

I First Heard This Song In 1999…

…When It Quickly Became A Personal Favorite.

YES, My Peeps…

…I’m Painfully Aware The Bulk Of Y’all Have Never Heard Of It…

…Let Alone Heard It Heard It.

Period Period.

So…

…Perhaps Through This Little Shout-Out…

…There Will Be More New Fans Of…

DEPECHE MODE

…And…

ONLY WHEN I LOSE MYSELF

…Or, At The Least, I’m Hoping That’s The Case.

Along With Being Beautiful…

…I Consider This Song To Be Personally Relevant.

Why?

Well…

…Likely For The Same Reason As Some Of You.

I Feel Incomplete So So SO Often.

Regardless Of Being IN Or OUT Of A Relationship…

…Having Or Not Having Money…

…Having Or Not Having Friends…

…Having Or Not Having Sex…

…etc etc etc…

…The Feeling Of Incompleteness Never Seems To Leave Me.

I’ve Tried Filling It.

Oh, How I’ve Tried.

I’m Told I’m Easy To Fall In Love With…

…But (nearly) Impossible To Handle Over Time.

I Generally End-Up Making Waves…

…Waves That I Don’t Expect To Make…

…Yet…

…Somehow…

…I’m Constantly Making Them.

It’s Times Like These When I’m Super-Duper-DUPER Happy To Have My Music.

Music Is Very VERY Powerful At Times…

…And It’s With Songs Like…

ONLY WHEN I LOSE MYSELF

…That A Shred Of Normalcy Tries To Patch The Hole The Rest Of Life Loves To Rip Open Again And Again AND Again.

Anyway, My Peeps…

…I Digress…

…For Now.

Do What You Can To Enjoy Your Weekend.

I’ll Be Making The Same Attempt.

We’ll Talk More Later, M’Kay?!

M’KAY!!!

6 responses to ““…I Can Feel The Emptiness Inside Me Fade And Disappear… There’s A Feeling Of Contentment Now That You Are Here…” –DEPECHE MODE (“Only When I Lose Myself” (1998))

  1. M’kay, Brad.
    Seriously, someone’s given you the wrong impression with “impossible to handle over time.” That’s such bullshit, because it’s got you thinking that anybody with whom you have a relationship is going to one day “wake up” and realize that he just can’t deal with you.. That’s BS.
    Dude, what it means when someone ‘can’t handle you after a while’ is that they were NEVER the right person for you. There may have been infatuation or whatever, but when that wore off it just wasn’t right. There’s nothing wrong with that. I’ve had a lot of good relationships, BUT, until I met my wife, they were all “the wrong one.”
    For the right person (and that person is out there, for serious) you’re not impossible to handle over time.
    BS, M’kay?

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    • I’m ADHD Out The Ass, I’m Bi-Polar, I’m A Paranoid Schizo, And My Feelings Are All A Jumbled Mess And Mainly Fake. My Friends Have All Moved Away From Me. I’ve Seen TWO People This YEAR That I Call “Friend” And Neither Of Them Really Give A Shit Whether They See Me Or Not.
      If That Doesn’t Mean I’m Hard To Handle, Then I Haven’t The Foggiest What It All Means.
      I Do Appreciate What You’re Saying…
      …And I Do Continue Looking For That Which I’ve Never Honestly Had Before.
      I’m Glad You Were Able To Find “The Right One” For Yourself…
      …And I Wish You Continued Happiness.
      I Can Approximate Happiness…
      …I Just Don’t Honestly FEEL It.
      What’Ya’Gonna’Do, Ya Know?!
      -BRAD

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  2. Okay, let me address a couple of those points.
    I agree that ADD, Bi-Polar and paranoid schizophrenia (I’m not sure if you’re being facetious about the last one; I don’t imagine you are, but people still have the idea that means multiple personality disorder) can make anyone hard to handle, but I still have to question the “over time.”

    Now, I can’t pretend to know anything about what it’s like to live with bi-polar or PS (I know quite a BIT about serious ADD, but at times it’s an asset honestly), but I have to imagine that if you’re ‘hard to handle’, you’re ‘hard to handle’ from early on. I Everybody’s different, though, and I’ve never been in a relationship with someone who was bi-polar, so I don’t know. Like so many people I have this vague and unproven notion that I’d act a certain way in a certain situation, but the truth is, I just don’t know. It’s nice to have a reminder that I don’t always need to talk out of my ass.

    Still, I am a romantic. I really believe that good things usually come to good people.

    How can you have fake feelings? You can DISPLAY fake emotions (and maybe that’s what you meant), but what you feel is real.

    As far as your friends moving away–I know a little bit about that, too. You mentioned some time ago that you live in a small place, as do I. You’re about ten years younger than I am I think, so you’re probably just experiencing this (or have been in recent years), but young people bail on small towns.

    And here’s something to chew over, Brad. It’s just an interesting coincidence, and like so many things in life doesn’t mean anything unless you want it to (and what is life without meaning, man?). But as I said above, I’m about ten years older than you I think. Well, I have a pretty decent life right now–wife, house, three kids (and there’s a point to this), a career I’m excited about–things are good. I tend to reflect on past times in my life however, and this morning I realized that exactly ten years ago, I was at what I hope will forever be the lowest point of my life.

    So, you never know, right?

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    • People Find My Odd Behavior Cute And Quirky At First. The Longer They’re Around Me, However, They Realize I’m Bat-Shit-Crazy The Bulk Of The Time, And It Tends To Wear Them Down. Of ALL My Relationships, 2 Have Lasted Beyond 2 Months. And Those 2 Relationships Were Distance Relationships. It Seems That So Long As There’s Enough Distance Between Us That We Can’t See Each Other Whenever We Wanna, There’s A Better Chance Of It Lasting BEYOND The 2 Month Mark.
      And I See My Error In My Prior Response. YES, My Emotional Displays Are Faked.
      I’m Reactionary, Anymore.
      When Something Is Supposed To Be Funny, I Wait For Someone Else To Laugh First, Then I Join In. If It’s Sad, I Wait For Someone Else To Say It’s Sad, And I React Accordingly.
      When I’m Alone…
      …If It’s Funny, I Sit In Silence…
      …And If It’s Sad, I Sit In Silence.
      When I Do Laugh About Something/Someone On My Own, I Almost Always Find-Out Afterward That I Shouldn’t Have Been Laughing When I Did, And Someone Has Taken Offense.
      And I’m 32yo, Now.
      I Don’t Know Your Age, To Be Honest, So You Could Be 10 Years My Senior, I Dunno.
      ANYWAY…
      …I’m Failing At Trying To Sleep Yet Again…
      …So I’m Making Bloggin’ing Posts.
      And There’s A Major League STORM Raging Outside, Right Now.
      So I May Go Have A Smoke On The Deck, And Check It Out.
      I’ll Catch You L8r, Dude.
      -BRAD

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