“When You Were Here Before… Couldn’t Look You In The Eye. You’re Just Like An Angel… Your Skin Makes Me Cry. You Float Like A Feather… In A Beautiful World. …” — RADIOHEAD (“CREEP” (1993))

… … …

“…I Wish I Was Special.

You’re So Fu*king Special.

But I’m A Creep.

I’m A Weirdo.

What The Hell Am I Doing Here?

I Don’t Belong Here. …”

… … …

"CREEP" From RADIOHEAD's 1993 Album "PABLO HONEY"

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“…I Don’t Care If It Hurts.

I Want To Have Control.

I Want A Perfect Body.

I Want A Perfect Soul.

I Want You To Notice… When I’m Not Around.

You’re So Fu*king Special.

I Wish I Was Special.

But I’m A Creep.

I’m A Weirdo.

What The Hell Am I Doing Here?

I Don’t Belong Here. …”

… … …

I Received An Email Earlier This Afternoon From An Old Friend.

In It, Said Friend Told Me He LOVED My Postings Where I Got Things On A Much More Personal Level.

He Said I Have A Way Of Explaining Myself, My Motives, My Reasons, etc etc, That Make Some Of My Work So Much More Juicy AND Tangible.

After A Few Hours Of Pondering Over This Email…

…I Decided To Just Break-Out One Of The Proverbial “Big Guns”…

…And Hit Y’all With MY SONG.

No, I Honestly Don’t Know Many People Who Would Claim This Song.

But Most People AREN’T ME.

I First Heard The Song “CREEP” On The Radio In Early 1994.

I Liked It, Yes.

But I Hadn’t Discovered “RADIOHEAD” Yet.

This Was The ONLY Tune Of Theirs I’d Heard To That Point.

It Wasn’t Until 1997 That It Became MY Song.

It Was 1997 When I’d First Entered Into The “Dating World” And Quickly Learned I Had NO CLUE As To Exactly WHAT I Was Doing.

But, Honestly, “CREEP” Was Only My Song Then Because I ENJOYED IT So SO Much.

It Was 1998 When The Pieces Started Falling Into Place…

…And The Song Began To Take On A Whole New Meaning To Me.

I Was Utterly Convinced I Was LITERALLY The Biggest Creep-Douche-Bag ON EARTH.

I Was Struggling To Find Others Who Were Interested In ME…

…And In THAT WAY (*wink wink nudge nudge*) Ya Know?

I Couldn’t Mange To Hang-Onto Anyone For More Than A Couple Weeks.

I Did Manage To Get Myself Engaged Some How…

…Although Said Engagement Lasted About…

…Ohhhh…

…2-MONTHS’ish.

All The While…

…Failure After Failure…

…It Continued To Build And Build Within Me That It Was Totally ALL MY FAULT.

And Then Something Horrid Happened.

I Sincerely…

…AND SERIOUSLY…

…Began To BELIEVE IT ALL.

And Then I Began To Change.

Suddenly…

…The Nice Guy With The Bad Bad Luck…

…Became A Total Prick…

…And Became That Thing He Was Already Sure He Was.

The Song “CREEP” Then Became “BRADLEY’S PERSONAL ANTHEM” And I Started Treating EVERYONE The Way I Was SURE I’d Been Treated For All Those Years.

When Someone Would Tell Me “I Love You, Bradley” I Would Calmly Reply With An “I Love You, Too.”

And Then I’d Get What I Felt I Needed/Deserved…

…And Then I’d MAKE VERY SURE The Other Person Was Left As Brokenhearted As I Was SURE They Would Have Left Me, Given The Chance.

I Really, REALLY Did Become The Person In The Song.

I Was Charming.

I Was Sweet.

I Was Playful.

I Was Evil.

And I Hurt A Lot Of People.

It Took Me A DECADE Before I Began To Truly Realize What All Damage And Hurt I’d Left It My CREEP’ISH WAKE.

It Cost Me Many Friends.

It Cost Me Many Relationships.

It Cost Me Plenty, And In Plenty Of Different Ways.

I’m Honestly Still Repairing Some Of The Damage.

There Are Two Gentleman In My Life Now…

…Good Friends From Those Earlier Days.

I Do Love Both Of Them.

I Do Know They Both Love Me.

But The TRUST Isn’t There, Anymore.

And I’m Pretty Sure It Likely Never Will Be Again.

I Know I Could Trust Them With My Life.

They Know They Could Trust Me With Theirs.

But Trusting Someone With Your Heart Is A Whole Different Ballgame.

And It’s A Ballgame I’d Likely Be Warming The Bench For The Duration.

I STILL LOVE THIS SONG.

I WILL ALWAYS LOVE THIS SONG.

Not Because Of Who I Was, Or Am, Or What The Song Used To Mean, Or Currently Does.

Just Because It’s A GREAT SONG…

…And It’s Come Along On This Journey Of Life With Me.

And To ME…

…That Makes It A Worthy Companion.

And I’ll STILL SMILE When I Hear It Play…

…EACH And EVERY TIME.

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“Rommel… You Magnificent Bastard… I READ YOUR BOOK!” — GEORGE C. SCOTT As “General George S. Patton, Jr.” In “PATTON” (1970)

I'm Kickin'-It-Back This Evening, Enjoying A Personal-Favorite Film Of Mine AND My Grandfather. I First Saw "PATTON" Before I'd Even Reached A Double-Digit Age. In Fact, I Can Remember Saving-Up $30 For The Lone-Purpose Of OWNING The Double-TAPE Special Edition On Good Ole VHS. YES, VHS FILMS DID COST $30 At One Point. That Ain't Even A Joke Or A Jive, My Peeps. BUT, To ME, It Was TOTALLY WORTH IT! It Was A Movie I Sincerely LOVED To Break-Out And Watch EVERY Memorial Day, 4TH Of July, Veteran's Day, Etc Etc. You Name A Military-Themed Holiday, I'd Bet You That $30 "PATTON" Was Watched By Myself On More Than One Occasion. It May Not Be Everyone's Cup-O-Tea, But You Can Bet Your Boots It IS One Of Mine! And As A Minor Side-Note... I Actually Had A Math Teacher Who Used To Call Me GENERAL OMAR BRADLEY (for obvious reasons). It Always Used To Make Me Smile So So Much When He'd Say That. Sheesh. I Hadn't Thought About That For YEARS And YEARS. SEE! I Keep Tellin' People BLOGGING IS VERY THERAPEUTIC!!! ๐Ÿ˜‰

(Not So) Random Movie Mention: THE LION IN WINTER (1968)

“THE LION IN WINTER”

… … …

Okie The Dokie, My Peeps…

…Here’s The Skinny.

I Don’t Honestly Know How Many MULTIPLE Times I’ve Seen This Flick.

Dozens…

…Perhaps?

The POINT Being…

…It’s A Large’ish Total.

And I VERY SINCERELY Have Felt…

…From The Moment I Found-Out…

…That THIS FILM…

“THE LION IN WINTER”

…Was THE FILM…

…Where Acting Favorite…

PETER O’TOOLE

…Was ROBBED ROBBED ROBBED…

…By “The Academy Of Motion Picture Arts And Sciences”ย MOST SERIOUSLY.

Period.

If You’ve Not Seen This Film…

…O.M.G!

“THE LION IN WINTER”

…Is…

…BY FAR…

…One Of THE MOST Professionally Acted Films…

…In THE HISTORY Of Films.

Period.

PETER O’TOOLE

…As…

“King HENRY II”

…To ME…

…Give US…

…HIS WOW-BANG-ZOOM…

…TOUR’DE’FORCE…

…PERFORMANCE To End All PERFORMANCES.

BIG PERIOD.

Now…

…Remembering What I’ve Just Said To You…

…Think About The Rest Of This Cast.

KATHARINE HEPBURN

…As…

“ELEANOR Of AQUITAINE”

ANTHONY HOPKINS

…As…

“Prince RICHARD”

JOHN CASTLE

…As…

“Prince GEOFFREY”

NIGEL STOCK

…As…

“WILLIAM MARSHALL”

…AND AND AND…

TIMOTHY DALTON

…As…

“King PHILIP II Of FRANCE”

!!!

YES, My Peeps.

“THE LION IN WINTER”

…Was…

…Truly…

…ACTED BY PROFESSIONALS.

KATHARINE HEPBURN

…DID Get Her Oscar For This One…

…Though She Had To SHARE IT With A Woman Who CAN’T ACT.

(SIDE NOTE: No, I Do NOT Like Barbara Streisand)

But Knowing…

PETER O’TOOLE

…Has NEVER Received A TRUE Oscar…

…And Having SEEN This Film So Many Times…

…It Was Likely The Hardest Pill To Swallow For The Man.

I’ve Seen All FIVE Nominated Performances For That Year…

…And Can EASILY Say…

…HE GOT ROBBED ROBBED ROBBED!!!

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“…Jan Lays Down And Wrestles In Her Sleep. Moonlight Spills On Comic Books And Superstars In Magazines. An Old-Friend Calls And Tells Us Where To Meet. Her Plane Takes-Off From Baltimore, And Touches-Down On Bourbon Street…” — PRIMITIVE RADIO GODS (“Standing Outside A Broken Phone Booth With Money In My Hand” (1996))

“…We Sit Outside And Argue All Night Long…

…About A God We’ve Never Seen…

…But Never Fails To Side With Me…

…Sunday Comes And All The Papers Say…

…Ma Theresa’s Joined The Mob, And Happy With Her Full-Time Job. …”

"...Am I Alive, Or Thoughts That Drift Away? Does Summer Come For Everyone? Can Humans Do What Prophets Say? And If I Die Before I Learn To Speak, Can Money Pay For All The Days I Lived Awake But Half-Asleep? ..."

… … … … … … …

I Became Addicted To This Song While In High School.

I Remember Listening To It With My Best Friend.

He Was Always Rather Partial To The Line About Bourbon Street, As I Recall.

For ME…

…It Was The Simple Melody, Pace & Rhythm That Made It Stand-Out.

To ME…

…It Was Quirky…

…It Was Different…

…It Was UNIQUE.

I Know Very VERY Well…

…There Are Many MANY Of You Out There…

…Reading These Bloggin’ings, Simply Searching For That UNIQUE Flare.

And In THAT Regard…

…We Are NOT UNIQUE To One Another.

This Song…

…To ME (again)…

…HAS THAT FLARE.

It’s A Tune That Makes ME Happy When I Hear It.

Sometimes…

…That’s ALL I Really WANT Or NEED…

…Just Like YOU.

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“Conformity Is The Jailer Of Freedom AND The Enemy Of Growth.” — JOHN F. KENNEDY

JOHN F. KENNEDYOur 35TH President Of The United States Of America

Throughout My Life…

…I’ve Been Fascinated With The American Presidency…

…AND…

…The Men Whom Have Held The Office.

Most Folks In America…

…Have Those Presidents They Enjoy Reading About…

…Or Discussing Briefly/At-Length.

Historically…

…As I’ve Made Mention To Y’all Before…

…My Favorite President To Study Is…

…JAMES K. POLK.

Of Those I’ve LIVED THROUGH…

…Yeah…

…WILLIAM JEFFERSON “Bill” CLINTON…

…Would Have To Be The Front-Runner.

For My Parents, However…

…JOHN F. KENNEDY…

…Has Been “Their Guy” Since His Election In 1960.

The Funny Part…

…To Me…

…Is That My Maternal-Grandmother…

…Whom I’d Always FELT/THOUGHT To Be Rather Conservative…

…ALSO Says KENNEDY Was Her Favorite.

NICE!

I Always So So SO Enjoy Breaking-Down The Walls Of Wonder AND Misconception!

The BEST Part Ofย Finding-Out Something New…

…Is When It Turns-Out To Be EVEN BETTER Than What You’d Already Known!

Right??!!?

RIGHT!!!!!!!

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